I'm feeling a little s-s-s-sicckkkk...

I have no idea what is going on with me! The weekend was good. We got all our chores done, and even had a cookout yesterday for Memorial Day. My allergies have been bothering me some, but nothing I can't handle. But today, oh my goodness....I feel like CRAP. I am so nauseas, I just wish I would go ahead and throw up rather than be nauseas. I hate this feeling. What I hate even more is not knowing what it is. I know, I am whining...sorry. If it is a bug, I just hope I don't give it to my kids. That is the last thing we all need.

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. Sorry, I am going back to bed now.

A Sad Day...

Yesterday was a terrible day at the PW site. Our friend Jennie, lost her baby boy at 20 weeks, due to an infection. Jennie, her husband and her extended family are all in my thoughts and prayers. All the girls at PW have been so very suuportive and have been wonderful through this hard time. Please continue to pray for Jennie through this sad time.

At the same time, we are able to be joyful, since our friend Heather just found out she is pregnant!! Way to go, Heather! I am so thrilled for you. I pray that you will have a wonderful, uneventful pregnancy. You have given us girls a reason to celebrate, to know that it can happen!

On the TTC front, I am on CD 8...waiting to O, and FF will probably get me messed up this month, since I woke up this morning with a fever...freggin allergies. I just hope it doesn't try and think I ovulated.

I hope everyone has a great Memorial Day weekend. Be safe!!

Where the hell is spring???

I am so sick of cool weather. Is it ever going to warm up around here? I planted my garden weeks ago, nothing came up...so I had to replant my cucumbers, still NOTHING...I am getting sick of it, frankly. I would just love to have a warm day that we can enjoy without having to wear jackets and jeans. The pool will never be warm enough to swim in. Poor Gracie just goes and stares at it.

On the dreaded TTC front, I am on CD 5 waiting to ovulate. I am anxious to try again, but this waiting is getting old. It's weird how some days I have no problem with the wait at all, then other days, I just want to cry wanting a baby. So today I found myself looking at pictures of when I had Gracie. She was such a pretty baby. Gosh, she looked like a doll. Then I wandered into the pregnancy photos...BIG mistake. I was crying before I knew it...stupid me. When I was pregnant I felt SO fat, but looking back on it, I really didn't get all that big. But I would do it all over again in a heart beat if God wanted me to. I'd be delighted to! Heck, I'd be ecstatic...so whenever, God...I'm here waiting.

I hope everyone has big plans for Memorial Day weekend. I on the other hand have chores to do. As you may know, we live on a farm, and the hay is ready to be cut and bailed...which will take all weekend. Then Monday, Daniel has to work, so no celebrating for us. I will be sure to take pictures of the blessed event of 'getting up hay' for you all to see. Loads of fun...NOT. Hopefully the weather will cooperate for us. If not, we're screwed.

Chandler is home sick from school. Well, not really sick. He has a tummy problem that he's had for years, and we now get to take him to a pediatric GI specialist to get it fixed. Hopefully, they can fix it...if not, we're in for a long lifetime of poopie. I know, TMI, sorry. I went ahead and pulled him out of school early for the year until we can get it straight. I got tired of sending him to school and picking him up after a few hours of being there. I also got tired of hearing his teacher talk aboout how bad it is to change him so many times a day. Try being his Mom....yes, he is difficult, DEAL WITH IT...I don't even get paid for it, she does!! Sorry, venting.

Ladies of PW, I really hope we are in for BFP's soon. The board is getting depressing. We all deserve it so much. Heather, I am praying your beans implanted...Lesley, I hope things get better for you soon. I know how hard this has all been for you. Ally, I hope your house sells, and you get to buy the house of your dreams. I also hope you can get your BFP before you have to find an RE in SA. Everyone else, good luck for those of you in the 2ww...here's to a board full of BFP's!!

BBT Nosedive

Need I say more?

What a pathetic way to start the weekend. Thanks girls for all the well-wishes....

Happy weekend everyone!

Playing catch up

I realize I have not written in a while...things have been busy here. So today I am playing catch up. Of course PW is down, so that in itself pisses me off. It seems like every time I turn around something is messed up with it. I went shopping with my Mom yesterday, and that was nice. I had Gracie with me, and she actually did okay to be shopping. She really hates going out. We went out for lunch and she acted so good! I really didn't have to speak to her all that often about her actions, and it was just a nice treat for me.

I need to back track, over the weekend, Daniel graduated from college. The graduation was Friday night at 6:30. The thing that sucked was he had to be there an hour early, and the college is an hour away, so we left at 4:30, got there at 5:30, the kids were awful even on the road, so that was the setup for the evening. My mother in law was with us, which was even worse. Chandler had to be taken out before 6...I was so stressed out, I could have cried. But we eventually made it through the night. The ceremony took 2 hours, then we all went out to dinner and didn't get home until after midnight, but it was worth it to see him accomplish this. He has worked so hard for so long on this, and it is not easy taking classes in the evening, part time, and taking care of a family, too. He really worked hard. I love you, hun!

The weekend was nice, my brother came in town Saturday to spend the day so we all got together for a cookout. Daniel had to work the weekend, so he couldn't be here. My allergies have decided to kick in strong again. It's just that time of year. It's also time to cut hay and get it up for the cows...I dread this time of year. It takes so much work to get ready for the winter, and I know they need it to eat, but it just seems like they eat so freggin much!But it has to be done. Actually twice more this summer. yay....

On the TTC front, I'm on CD 26, and so far no AF in sight. I probably just jinxed myself, but I am happy to report that I have not even thought about testing yet. I'm so proud of myself. And my temps are still looking good, they keep going up so we'll cross our fingers and hope for the best.

I hope everyone is doing good. I feel like I have been a stranger on PW lately, I try to catch up when I can, but that is about it. I hope all the girls are doing well. Take care! And hoping for lots of BFP's!!

Saturday afternoon

I think I O'd today. This was the first day of having a high temp, so we'll say I did. Wow, it took forever this month (CD 15). The bad thing is that we didn't BD today, since Daniel had to work, and I was too lazy to get my tail up. So, we have been doing it every other day for the "just in case I O"...hopefully it worked. I know I go through this every month of telling you guys "hey, I hope I got pregnant" So for those of you still willing to read, God bless you sweet people. I know I am boring.

I was made aware that my ten year high school reunion is coming up soon. I know I really want to go, but really it is just to be nosey and see how bad people look after ten years. I know I am horrible. But then I started thinking about it, and to be honest, there is only one person I would like to see. They know who they are....I have been through so much with that person that I just don't know what I would do if I saw them. You were just a friend while we were in school, until years later I finally realized that you were like a best friend to me. Then it all clicked that you stood by me through a lot of crap with my ex-shithead...Sorry, but I only speak the truth here. And I really wish that I could just thank you in person for staying by me through it all and still understanding what a nut head I really am. But I doubt that I will go to the reunion...too much anxiety over one simple night. And if it is meant to be, then I will run into that person eventually. I did run into my ex-shithead a few years ago and it was so nice to know that I had only gained about 5 pounds and gave birth twice while all he had done was be the hmm-hmm that he is and gained like 50 pounds!! I was so happy. Yes, I know I am still horrible. He was still as cocky as he ever was and still thought he held the world in his hand. Yay for him. The funny thing was that on the way to the wedding his son got car sick and puked all over his suit! Tee hee....So it was well worth going to that wedding, since I really HATE weddings. I know they should be fun and it's a very happy day for the bride and groom, but let's face it, the divorce percentage is high these days, so I'm supposed to go and be happy for these people that have divorce as an option the whole time they are taking vows in front of God??? I think not. Just my opinion and all.

Tomorrow is Mothers day as you all know, hopefully. If not....you are screwed. And to make my day wonderful my husband has to work. Niiice. So I am having my family over to have lunch here. Since my family is so messed up, they think that coming to visit mom at lunch time is the greateset gift they could give her, as she scurries around trying to find something to cook for everyone. So I thought I would save her the trouble and cook a meal and surprise her. How nice of me.

Today is the Heart Of Virginia Festival where the town closes down and has a big celebration for it's age I guess...they have lots to do, food, music, face painting, lots of booths selling crap. It's something to get out of the house, but since I am alone with both kids, I can't actually go and enjoy it. But tonight they are having a concert and fireworks at the airport so we'll be going to that. Lucky me, my husband runs the airport and it's free for me. There are perks afterall, huh?

I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend. Take care!

I need a dose of reality...

I have had a pretty busy week and I have felt like I am getting emotionally "strained". As many of you that are reading this may know, the TTC road is a long, winding, draining, exhausting, and sad road. Just as you think you have hit the bottom, it can always get worse. So, I was going through some old files in my computer and ran across this. Like I said, it seems as if I have hit the bottom, when suddenly I am watching this and tears are pouring. And it suddenly occurs to me that I really don't have it all that bad. Yes, I have hit a rocky patch, yes, I can over come it. If not, I will get over it. But I just thought that if you ever had a bad day, when you feel like your world is crashing, go here and know that it could be worse.

Now, with that said, if you have no heart, don't look. I am a Bush supporter, a Rebublican through and through. No I am not a political person, but I stand behind what I believe. So all of you who don't support the war or what our men are doing, don't look. And if you do look and get offended, for who knows what reason, don't complain to me....I warned you not to go there. But as for me and my family, we support our men, we support the casue, we support the troops and their families that are helping this country in need.

And by the way, have you sound turned on, it's absolutely beautiful. And pray for our troops. They are still over there, fighting for innocent people. Risking their lives for a good cause.

***Note*** I am aware that for some reason, the link is not going anywhere and I'm trying to fix it. Sorry about the problem.