I'm sorry, girls...
I know we all have these weeks, and this sadly, is my week. I know I have let a lot of you down. I'm sorry. I am so, so , so happy for Chasity and Heather. Chasity, I hope you have a wonderful, uneventful 9 months, and Heather I hope you are carrying as many babies as you want, if it's just one, then let it be one, if you want 3 then here's to carrying 3 healthy babies to term.
I am almost to the point where I say I am ready to take a break from TTC. We have been hard at it for so long now, and I am tired. Just flat out tired. I called my insurance company the other day and they said I do have maternity coverage, as if I would ever get pregnant, but they do not cover any fertility treatment. As if I could ever afford that on my own. So with that said, I guess I can either pray that it happens, or I can just give up. And right now, I am in no position to make that decision. I remember a few weeks ago, someone on PW said they were feeling depressed, and I preached to them that she needed to be in the right frame of mind for when she does get pregnant....who am I to preach it if I am not in the frame of mind to bring a child into the world?? I know that when I see that pregnancy test, I will fall to peices, and be so overjoyed, but for now, while we are trying, I need to get my head right. It isn't fair to my husband or to my kids.
I hope this makes SOME sense, if not I apologize. I just wanted to let you know that I am okay, just in a rut. A funk....a nasty funk. But I am lurking on PW, just not doing a lot of posting.
Thanks for caring, it means so much to me.
5 Comments:
At 11:26 PM, Anonymous said…
Your entitle to feel down when it gets all too much. I hope that your feeling better about it all soon. Hugs and I hope that you did "o" and you get a bfp suprise.
Love Lesley
At 6:50 AM, Heather P. said…
Sorry Heather you feel the way you feel (in a rut or funk) but sometimes when things are at the worst we find something in ourselves to move on and to the next level.
With you insurance did you ask if they pay for infertility testing. That is where most of the money is spent. Also you need to ask if they pay for fertility drugs. We had a separate prescription card from our insurance and they paid for the drugs where our insurance would not have.
Good Luck I hope that the BFP is just 2 weeks away!
At 7:30 AM, Ally said…
Heather,
I am so sorry you are feeling blue. I don't have any words of wisdom as I have been in a total funk for weeks as well but I can tell you this..if you ever want to talk, vent, scream and compare notes with another nutso funked out
special ed mom...I'm your lady! Pm me Heather or email me
ally611@sbcglobal.net
Chin up :)
At 7:03 PM, Jenn said…
I am sorry that you are feeling so down lately - TTC can take alot out of you.
I hope that you start to feel better soon - whatever you decide regarding TTC.
Good luck to you.
At 3:01 AM, Anonymous said…
hey, hoping your spirits are a bit higher today.
hugs and take care.
Lesley
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