The first snow day
My neice is in the hospital. She is 3 and has pneumonia. She has never had the best of health, she battles with asthma and has been very sick in the past with it. So I am sending out an extra prayer for Cortney that she will get better. As of now, she is on Albuterol (sp?) and she is a wild child. She was like a caged animal last night when I went to visit her.
Today I am on cycle day 8. Daniel and I talked about it, and since we really don't know when I will ovulate this month, we plan to baby dance every other day starting today. Lucky him, huh? I don't temp. and I don't chart anything, I have gone by CM and two months we used ovulation tests. The first month it worked like a charm, told me when I would ovulate, but the next month, it said I didn't ovulate all month. What the ??? So I guess, in the next few months, I need to decide if I want to go see a doctor or not. I will be the first to admit, I am petrified of doctors. yes, even after two kids and kidney stones, etc. I HATE DOCTORS. But I am gonna have to suck it up and go see one. That is, if I don't get pregnant this month.
See, I had it planned that I would have all my children by the time I was 30. Well, since my birthday is August 14th, those of you that can count, I have missed my chance. So, I changed my "life goal" to being pregnant by the time I am 30. I don't know why, I just have this fear of giving birth after that age. Growing up, 30 was like a magic number, once you reach that, your life is over. Well, now at 29, I am wanting to change my views. I was very naive, still am to an extent, but hey, I am willing to bend some. So now if I get pregnant, I will be "big pregnant" in the summer, which I hate. I did that with my daughter, and I was so big feeling, that I just really don't want to do that again. With my son, I was big during the winter and that worked well for me. So my husband and I just bought a time share, and now we will be going on vacation in August, and I may be big. Me pregnant in a bathing suit is awful. Let me just say, I am pretty small framed, a B cup at best. Exactly one month after I get pregnant (with both kids) I swell to a D cup. Now some ladies think that is great, not me. My legs look like stilts, my arms like twigs, my belly like a basketball, and boobs big enough to compete with Dolly. So bathing suits are not my idea of fun while pregnant. Now that all this is off my chest, I am get busy baby dancing.
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